Why Not Me?

A Year of Exploring the Unseen, Embracing the Unknown, and Becoming More.

Dec 31, 2024

Vibe: 7:30am, taking a beat as my wife and I switch shifts to tend to our sick little one

View: Looking out my window

Tune: Silence

It’s safe to assume that by now, you have a pretty good idea of who I am, what I stand for, and my journey of confidence and authenticity as a queer Afro-Panamanian woman. Shout out to my storytelling skills for painting that picture over the past few months on here.🤭

I will say there’s been a lot of clarity in that sense. What I’m working on now is adding color and shape to my what’s next chapter.

In full transparency, that was my number one reason for seeking a life/career coach over a year ago. The signs were there—loud and clear—telling me it was time to push, discover, and dive deeper into my own potential. But I felt stuck.

Since starting this path, I don’t feel as stuck anymore, but there’s still work to do. I have conversations with people all the time about their mixed feelings on coaching and I get it. Adding someone to your care team takes trust and openness. Not everyone is ready, and that’s okay. But as an advocate for coaching, I knew that as amazing as I am (because yes, I am amazing) and as much as I’ve accomplished, I was still only tapping into a fraction of what could be for me. To keep progressing toward my goal of being the best version of myself, I have to keep stepping into versions of myself I haven’t met yet.

I’ve been reflecting on this—and so much more—over the past few weeks. I reflected about the word I want to guide my steps in 2025. I landed on EXPLORE. It’s a simple word, but for me, it holds so much weight.

Through self-work and my sessions with my coach and therapist, I’ve come to realize something surprising: I’m still holding back. It almost sounds absurd given the amazing milestones I’ve hit this past year alone, but that’s the thing about inner work—it holds up a mirror to the truth. And once you see it, you can’t unsee it.

I’m grateful for the revelations and reminders that have shown up in all kinds of ways. They’re pushing me toward the better version of myself I’m actively working to meet. In 2025, my grounding question will be: “Why not me?” My guiding light—my North Star—will be this journey of exploration. I’m committed to stretching myself to see what’s possible, trying things on, embracing the unknown, and staying open to what feels expansive.

Let me be real: it’s scary. The uncomfortable and unknown always are. But it’s also exhilarating. It’s been a while since I’ve felt this kind of clarity about the energy and mood of what’s next. Now, my focus is on embracing it, seeking it, and creating the building blocks for what’s ahead.

So here’s to exploration. Here’s to asking bigger questions, leaning into the unknown, and unlocking potential I know has been there all along. Cheering myself on for what I hope will be a year of growth, clarity, and success.